A Quicky...hehe

The world is falling.
Stars don't stay in the sky too long.
These are the yells of the crazy man that works at the Project.
He may be a prophet and no one would know, or he may be a crazy guy.
I like him, I am not afraid of him.
I think he's fascinating... probably because I'm crazy too.
He is emblematic of this entire experience. Insane.

Yesterday one of my community members insinuated that the comments I had made about discerning whether I should stay or not were for attention.
I almost decked him in the face.
Its because of al this community business that I told anyone in the first place.
If it wasn't for that I wouldn't have said a world and left or not left and no one would have ever known I was thinking about it.
Asshole.

I probably won't go. I think God wants me here and I'm being very stubborn about it. Though, thats a bit presumptious... I don't know for sure what the eff God wants. I sometimes wish he was more Old Testamenty and sent some angels or some fire or something cool and exciting.
That's how I feel today, the sisters helped me a lot... and so did Alex... bow to the women in my life as always... though I called Aaron and that was helpful too.
The only reason I'm feeling like I should stay is because other people have said I'm doing something here, not because I asked, they just did... and even in I make JQ's time as a JVI more fun, get some kids to act in a play, give Tara something fun to do, and play with kids... even if I just love a little, I may learn to love a lot. That's something right? In the end I'm simply here to love.
I've been worried I'll hate instead. That's why I wanted to leave.
I don't want to hate these people.
But maybe my lesson is that I already learned to love people that I feel are easy to love.
Maybe I need to take it a step farther.

Finally, thank you for reading and commenting and reading. You are all in my hearts as well, and I think of each of you everyday, both friends from home, friends from college, family, and those in my greater JVI community.

More pictures will come.
They are far more interesting than my rambling.
I would also like to share some of the amazing people here with you.

Love,
Mike
still a bit of an arrogant baffoon.